27 April 2013
26 January 2013
*omnomnom*
I love to eat. It doesn't help in terms of losing weight when boyfriend is also a food lover. So food, please stop enticing me so that i can slim down again. Uwaaa.
*vroom*
Hye Megatron,
Daddy and mummy loves you :*
Now Baby has company too!
Welcome to our lives :)
*alhamdulillah for this rezeki. Semoga semakin murah rezeki kami berdua dan keluarga, amin*
Daddy and mummy loves you :*
Now Baby has company too!
Welcome to our lives :)
*alhamdulillah for this rezeki. Semoga semakin murah rezeki kami berdua dan keluarga, amin*
19 January 2013
*i think too much*
My nights are filled with worries and unnecessary thoughts that makes it difficult for me to just drift off to sleep, being a full fledged over thinker that i am. I cant stop the thoughts from bombarding my mind and though i do come up with solutions to the worrying things that I was thinking about, i will always find a new angle to worry. Its not wholly a good personality trait for me since i mainly end up stressed, frustrated and worried for no absolute reason. However, i do believe that sometimes this thinking too much of mine helps me plan things ahead with a few backups up my sleeve because i strive for the best if i could help it.
Before the semester break started, i had been worrying my a** off about the exams and scaring the sh*t out of myself regarding the marks that i had to achieve for i had a huge expectation riding on my back and i couldn't afford to let my parents down. Making both mama and papa proud of me is my number 1 goal. Not only that i had just finished stressing and pushing myself to the max on meeting the deadlines of all the assignments, and for some i wasn't totally happy of. So it was a huge relief when i wrote the final words as my answer for my exam and happily welcoming holidays , but boy my relief was short lived.
Now i have new set of things to worry and think too much about which doesn't particularly help in the enjoying the semester break part *sigh* for one, I'm worried about my result, which I'm sure everyone else is not until the day of the result unveiling itself arrives. Then the worry of resuming for Masters is making me sleep late during the nights. Which university to apply, will i be chosen, the long distance relationship, the being alone in a foreign part of the world are main things i worry about. It all scares me, they actually scare me to death.
To add to that, me and boyfriend had made some plans of matrimony but the definite date has not been set yet due to reasons i have yet to complete my current Degree. I tend to get so worked up on whether i should wait after or before I've achieved my Masters. Making important decisions such as these are not to be trifled with lightly. Many have said that being engaged has many obstacles and thinking of the fact if i was lucky enough to be chosen to further my education overseas, it gives me chills about long distance relationship. But we haven't planned on getting engaged anyway,just risik then nikah, ishaa Allah if Allah wills it. Thus the indecision on what to do first, and that leads to the frustrating over thinking.
Those two are the main things i think about before i sleep this past week. The less head numbing things are the fact that i have to face my final and most crucial semester of all. The viva that i will have to face, though I'm frightened as hell, a case of stage fright still there after all these years. The completion of my Final Year Project, my minor subjects and such. Gosh sometimes i feel my brain throbbing like it wants to burst from doing all those unnecessary thoughts, but i cant help myself. No matter how hard i try to push them out and clear my head, they'll end up winning. So that marks the end of this long post. Sorry for the rambling though I'm very sure no one would want to read this long. So I'm safe! Hahaha.
-END-
Before the semester break started, i had been worrying my a** off about the exams and scaring the sh*t out of myself regarding the marks that i had to achieve for i had a huge expectation riding on my back and i couldn't afford to let my parents down. Making both mama and papa proud of me is my number 1 goal. Not only that i had just finished stressing and pushing myself to the max on meeting the deadlines of all the assignments, and for some i wasn't totally happy of. So it was a huge relief when i wrote the final words as my answer for my exam and happily welcoming holidays , but boy my relief was short lived.
Now i have new set of things to worry and think too much about which doesn't particularly help in the enjoying the semester break part *sigh* for one, I'm worried about my result, which I'm sure everyone else is not until the day of the result unveiling itself arrives. Then the worry of resuming for Masters is making me sleep late during the nights. Which university to apply, will i be chosen, the long distance relationship, the being alone in a foreign part of the world are main things i worry about. It all scares me, they actually scare me to death.
To add to that, me and boyfriend had made some plans of matrimony but the definite date has not been set yet due to reasons i have yet to complete my current Degree. I tend to get so worked up on whether i should wait after or before I've achieved my Masters. Making important decisions such as these are not to be trifled with lightly. Many have said that being engaged has many obstacles and thinking of the fact if i was lucky enough to be chosen to further my education overseas, it gives me chills about long distance relationship. But we haven't planned on getting engaged anyway,just risik then nikah, ishaa Allah if Allah wills it. Thus the indecision on what to do first, and that leads to the frustrating over thinking.
Those two are the main things i think about before i sleep this past week. The less head numbing things are the fact that i have to face my final and most crucial semester of all. The viva that i will have to face, though I'm frightened as hell, a case of stage fright still there after all these years. The completion of my Final Year Project, my minor subjects and such. Gosh sometimes i feel my brain throbbing like it wants to burst from doing all those unnecessary thoughts, but i cant help myself. No matter how hard i try to push them out and clear my head, they'll end up winning. So that marks the end of this long post. Sorry for the rambling though I'm very sure no one would want to read this long. So I'm safe! Hahaha.
-END-
14 January 2013
19 December 2012
*bookworm*
Big bad wolf fair is here again and it has been a frenzy for book lovers like me. I already hacve more than 30 books and i will surely buy more before the fair ends on the 23rd. If not mistaken. Hihi.
I was somewhat disappointed with the Literature section since there were just two tables of it and there were scarcely any books on African lit, which i am so interested in. Well to say i have a passion for literature. I just wish there were more books on it.
I was somewhat disappointed with the Literature section since there were just two tables of it and there were scarcely any books on African lit, which i am so interested in. Well to say i have a passion for literature. I just wish there were more books on it.
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